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God Supplies our Faith

My personal journey of deliverance.

A Time of Challenge

I’ve been reflecting on my struggles with my faith over the past several years and all of the turmoil that ensued with it. The fears and doubts I experienced were hard, but I remember one particularly difficult trial involving a dark period of my life with a “deliverance minister.” This is a false doctrine and should be avoided. In my view, it is impossible for someone who has the Holy Spirit dwelling in them to be demon-possessed. I was deceived as a babe in Christ due to my lack of scriptural knowledge. As I was suffering, I remember asking God why He was allowing me to hurt in this way. I remember saying something along the lines of, “I feel like a fish in a bowl in your game, and if I fail your test you’ll send me to hell. God, I am a conscious being and I feel pain.” The thought that came to my mind next is one that I’ll never forget. 

“When you are with Me forever in heaven, you will never ask that question again.” 

Now, I know some people may not believe God speaks to us in such a manner (and I want to believe it was Him), but regardless of your view, I think we can agree that it echoes the following scripture incredibly well. 

My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me, for my Father has given them to me, and he is more powerful than anyone else. No one can snatch them from the Father’s hand. The Father and I are one.” — John 10:27-30 

A Time of Joy and Faith

Regardless of the experience, the scripture is sure, God was holding me throughout the entirety of all my trials. He carried me to the other side of them to where I’ve now come to echo and wholeheartedly affirm the words of the prince of preachers (Charles Spurgeon), “It is not your hold of Christ that saves you, but His hold of you.” 

If I could only impart to you one thing, dear reader, it would be to have you know that my doubts of faith were never about the evidence for God’s existence or the resurrection of Christ (Romans 1:18-25, Psalm 19:1-4), but from unresolved pain that caused me to run from the One Who loves me beyond measure, and not wanting to be hurt again in fear that He would leave me too, just as everyone else has. I know now He will never leave or forsake me (Deuteronomy 31:6) and I am glad He continually left the 99 to chase after me, the lost sheep who kept running away (Matthew 18:10-14). My advice to you in your seasons of doubt is to encourage you to simply run to Christ and pour out your heart to Him. Give Him your doubts, your fears, your anxieties, and let Him heal you as you spend time in prayer and fellowship with other believers while you investigate the evidence (should you need to). Always remember that He is a God who cannot fail, a God who will not lose a single one of His children. Trust Him in the process, knowing that He will bring you through the other side of your doubts as you seek Him and trust Him to give you the faith to endure. Remember, He has done it before! 

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.” — Hebrews 12:2 

God Bless you my friend, and know that you are loved by the Father, in His Son Jesus. I pray that His love fills and surrounds you and the Holy Spirit comforts you. Amen. 


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AuthorTimothy Leibbe | BCWorldview.org 

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